so i kept telling myself that i was done with online searches. the paid sites were getting me nowhere, the free sites were getting me nowhere…i was done! but i couldn’t stop looking. it was like a bad car accident that people drive past and have to look at. oddly enough, when i drive past bad accidents, i can’t look. but with the dating sites (and i use that term loosely), i’m like a junkie who needs her fix. most of the time i just look for a quiet chuckle. it’s amazing what people will advertise. it’s also interesting what people will have as their username. i’m sorry, but if your username has the words “killer,” “killa,” “bomb,” or “machete,” it’s safe to say i won’t be responding to your emails.
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however, i’ve recently gone into overdrive with the browsing, and even sent out a couple of emails. i usually don’t reach out unless i can find out more about the person through my trusty little search engine (google <3), but i decided to bite the bullet and just reach out to the people that sound interesting, google search be damned.
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the good: i’ve gotten a LOT of positive feedback from people. the bad? this has led to an increase in emails and correspondence in my life. so much so that i’m finding myself, for the first time ever, unable to answer all my emails. it’s like adding another full time job on top of my full time job and school! there just simply isn’t enough time to get to them all! and then i feel guilty for not getting back to them because i always try to respond to my email pretty quickly.
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on top of that, this week has been so busy and work-filled for me that i haven’t had the chance to just chill and unwind at all. now i’ve got several people asking if i want to go out this weekend and i might just have to say no. it’s funny how timing and i are never on the same side. when i wanted to go out, nobody was free. now that i’m so busy i can barely breathe, everyone is asking for time.
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i guess i did it to myself by diving back into the online world, but perhaps these people will be willing to wait. besides, what’s the fun in rush-rush dating, right? 
